Poison

Yesterday morning, I was cleaning the house. Ty was fishing with his dad, so I had the house to myself to do as I pleased. Well, I took the puppies out to the bathroom. when I brought them back in I fed them. Within about 15 minutes both of the little dogs were foaming at the mouth and coughing. The boy then threw up. I freaked. I called Ty and he said to take them to the vet. I rushed them to the vet because it closed in 20 minutes. I got there and they were given shots and medicine. They are going to be okay, but it was very nerve racking. They got into some poison, but we have no idea where. They have been really sick and tired the rest of the weekend. To make things worse, Izzie is in heat.

Sorrow

Today I received some upsetting news. One of my student's at Lonoke died yesterday afternoon. Thankfully, he is no longer suffering in his battle against cancer, but why must he die at such a young age. I've check on some people daily. Two of these I don't know. One died eight days after birth and the other just reached his first birthday. Please pray for these three families.

Here are there websites:
Caleb, Lonoke student www.caringbridge.org/ar/caleb
Ira, one year old in New York www.brooklynchurchplant.blogspot.com
Noah, passed away at eight days http://noahwhaley.blogspot.com

Oh my! Oh my!

Tonight while watching ESPN I was amazed at Stephen A. Smith on Quite Frankly. He was quite frank about his feelings about Jesse Jackson. He basically said that Jesse was doing everything for show. There is nothing do with civil rights in regards to Barry Bonds and having syringes thrown at him. Ty and I were completely amazed that a black man was being so brutally honest about a civil rights leader. We were so proud of him. I'm looking for a link, so you can here it. I'll add it when I find it.

Here's the link his speech in print:
http://www.charlotte.com/mld/charlotte/news/breaking_news/14364068.htm

Spring Sing

Spring Sing weekend is over, and I'm exhausted! Most of my college buddies were in town. We got to hang out without husbands on Friday night. It was great fun. One friend is pregnant, another is trying, and two had babies. I can't believe we are all getting so old. I love how Harding lets you pick up right where you left off. There was no awkwardness between us as some of us haven't seen each other in two years. Even though I still live in Searcy, it was amazing to see how much the campus has changed. Race street has changed too. Mainly in the last couple of months. It's been real annoying for driving. Searcy really is growing, and I can't seem to keep up.

Spring Sing was not as good this year as it has been in the past. The host and hostesses did great(better than usual), but the ensemble was off all night in every song. I liked the little jingles before the club acts, however the did not announce the club names in the introductions. United We Stand was almost undetectable. It didn't sound like the same song, and I didn't like the awkward river dance that accompanied it. I did like the new arrangement of music though. This year there was not a show you felt sorry for, but at the same time there wasn't one that was OUTSTANDING. They were all somewhere in the murky middle.
Critique of shows:
Shantih: Mario Brothers: Great idea, but I was almost embarrassed I had been a part of the club. I didn't tell my kids that I took to the children's performance which club I had been in.
Zeta Rho/TNT: Work out: Well done! There was humor and great staging. I was purely entertained especially with Richard Simmons in your show.
Chios/Delta Gamma Rho: Ninjas: Cute! I really enjoyed how your choreography took on the character of an oriental person. I LOVED your costumes.
Kings Men/Omega Lambda Chi/and every club: Commercials: I have never laughed so hard in a show. Bison Bits with an autographed picture of Dr. Burks was priceless. Very creative!
Kojies/JuGoJu: Boot Camp: Very clean, but not that entertaining. Glad you placed, but it just wasn't as good as your shows typically are.
ChiSigs/Regina: I had no idea what was happening in your show. Your show had choreography that has been used in tons of shows in the past. I was disappointed in the lack of creativity.
GammaSigs/Iota Chi: Your costumes were cute, but I have no idea how you were allowed to do your show. Cowboys(Kings Men) and Gold Rush(Chi Sigs/Regina) should be so upset. It was so very similar to their shows. As a former director, I do not know how that was approved. Props for convincing the powers that be.

Tired

I just finished a crazy week. I am now co-coaching the cheerleading squad at school. I spent every night at school until 9. I also had a clinic Saturday morning. It was so busy. I slept more this weekend than I have all year. I needed all that extra sleep. I'm finally catching up.

This week was also bittersweet in the fact that we took 40 out of 59. That's a huge squad, but I felt so bad about the 19 that didn't make it. They all worked so hard. I have mixed feelings about taking 40. That is a huge number!!! When they try out in 9th grade the squad is brought down to 12. It can break your heart if you've cheered for two years and then all of a sudden, you don't make the squad. The good thing about a squad that big is that it lets more people get involved.

I'm so happy with the squad that was chosen. Things should work out great because we have a lot of really talented girls.

Anger

Yesterday, Ty and I went to Little Rock to celebrate "Gotcha Day" with his parents. (Gotcha day is the day Ty's parents brought him home because he was adopted.) Ty's parents were pressuring him to quit at Doc's and come work for the family business, so he can inherit it when his dad retires. Ty has fought working for the business because he doesn't want to be on call in the middle of the night when we have kids like his father was when he was little. Ty's dad offered him a job for $10 an hour and the business within five years. Ty and I discussed it and decided for him to take it. Well, his mother who is a partner in the business was not present when this discussion took place. She decided upon hearing this that she did not want this. I do not understand why. She wanted him to leave his current job and join the business, but she's not wanting to pay him for it. I don't understand. I'm so mad about. We had made a life decision to take over the family business, but now we can't. However, Ty still has to stay at Doc's indefinitely. We are so upset because now we don't know what to do for the future. This job would have allowed me to work as an office manager at home with kids. It also would have allowed us to have insurance, cars, and gas money from the business' income. I'm just so frustrated with all that has happened. I just do not understand Ty's mother. I'm beginning to understand his hostility towards her.

Spring Break

Spring Break started Friday. It couldn't have come at a better time. I was ready to kill some of the students because I was so exhausted and needed some time off. My break has started off pretty well. I've done nothing but play with my dogs. I finally found out what was causing my blurred vision. It's nothing serious. It's just eye muscle spasms. I have to give my eyes a rest during close up work. I have a fun filled week of babysitting, going to the doctor, and painting planned. I'm looking forward to time off to rest and not think about school for awhile.

I also have a new niece, Emily Arden Diles. She was born Wednesday weighing in at 7 lbs. 8 oz. and 19 inches long. Mom and baby are doing fine as is the aunt.

Crazy Week

So this week has been absolutely crazy. I'll start with Saturday because no one ever starts their week there. I had class from 8-4. We found out we had a project due Friday! Monday, I gave the benchmark exam and had a paper due in Research. Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday I gave more benchmark testing. I had class Thursday night from 4:30-9:30. Not fun!! Things I had to do this week other than going to class.

• paper for research
• grades turned in
• advanced placement curriculum
• brochure for counseling
• study for test in theories
• bomb test in theories
• take Patton to the vet

This week also was my husband's birthday. Not to mention laundry and cleaning. Which both have been neglected. I'm so thankful it is Friday, and it is Harding's spring break next week. I need a break from classes. Then it is school's spring break, so I don't have to go to work.

I am completely worn out and emotionally strained.

Good things come to those who wait

Today, I was driving home from my mother-in-law's house in Little Rock. I found the most exciting thing. Taco Bueno is coming. They are almost finished. Yes, it is in Little Rock, but that is closer than Texas. The really great news is that it is at the exit to go to the Gentry's home. I can't wait until it opens. Hopefully it will do well enough that one will come to Searcy soon! Here is proof that it is there.

Death

I've had lots of issues lately with death. I'm afraid to die. I don't know why, but that thought of crossing over scares me. What if I get stuck? What will happen to Ty? Will he know how to pay bills etc.? I know that the odds of me dying soon are not great but they are out there. Let me state some things that have happened since the beginning of February around here.

• A central high cheerleader was killed in a car wreck on Feb. 6.(However, she was 3 times over the legal limit of alcohol and she had cocaine in her system)
• A Harding Academy senior's mother died in car wreck.
• A student at my brother's school died in a car wreck on Monday. (He teaches at a small Christian school in Tennessee. The whole basketball team saw the wreck)
• A CAC cheerleader and her mother died yesterday in a car wreck.
• A third grader at my nephew's school died last Thursday. She died from cancer. She told her friends that when she died she wanted it to snow because her mom liked snow. It snowed the next day. She was also told that when she got to heaven she could pick any horse to ride. She had ridden a horse earlier that month. The horse she rode died suddenly the Saturday after her death.
• An 11 month old boy died from heart problems.

I'm just being surrounded and having issues about death.

Shopping

I love to go shopping. It is great fun, but this week, I have almost decided it is not worth it because of lack of customer service.

My advanced science class is taking home mealworms to raise into beetles. I had to go to "The Fishbowl" to purchase them. Well, there was only one person working period. He had to get fish, birds, hamsters, and mealworms out for whoever. There were like 3o customers. I finally got him to get by worms. He then asked if that would be all. I said yes and proceeded to go to the register. Did he follow? No!!! I waited for 15 minutes to be checked out! If I didn't need them for class, I would have just left.

I then head to Wal-Mart. Unlike most people, I enjoy Wal-Mart. I love to take my time and walk up and down all the aisles and look at stuff I don't need nor will I ever and wonder who buys that. Well, Wednesday I did not have the time to do this. I had to get in, get out, go home, cook supper, and go to church. So, I was on track to get out of there quickly. Well, the first obstacle was my cart. It worked just fine until I put two bags of 40 lb. dog food in it. Then it became that clanging annoying cart that won't turn. I buy dog food all the time and this doesn't happen, so it was the cart. On top of that everyone was there. It was so crowed that you had to go down the aisles twice, one time for each side. Towards the end of the experience all the stockers come out. They close off all the short breaks in the main aisle, so you have to go all the way to the end and back if you needed something on the other side. Then there were only like 5 registers open, so the lines were so long. It was awful! I didn't even make it home in time to unload the car to go to church much less cook dinner. So, we had Taco Bell, and stayed home. I now know why people hate Wal-Mart. They shop on Wednesdays before church. I know I will never again go on Wednesday after school.

There were loose birds in both stores. They were opening the bird food bags at Wal-Mart.

Secret Sins

We all have some secret sins that we participate in. That might not be sins, but we know that it's not healthy to do them as often as we do. Here are a list of mine.

• Sex and the City Reruns
• Online Games at Shockwave
• Reading blogs
• Ice cream with caramel
• Doing nothing
• Procastinating
• Survivor when its on

What are some of your secret or open indulgences?

Lost

I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I want friends to do things with here in Searcy, but I'm too paranoid to go find them. Searcy is a weird place to be if you're a graduate and don't have kids. There is no strong group at churches for people in this position. You still feel like a student especially if you are married to one, but you are an adult. There are not many people in this position, so it drives you to want to have a baby sooner. I want a baby to put me in a different social group, but I can't afford one. I'm not ready mainly because my husband isn't ready. I'm starting grad school in the fall, so I will be a full time employee and student. This will most likely put me in a weirder spot than I am now, but it might give me some outlets for meeting new people.

Ty's job has him working most Sunday mornings. Even though he was told it would be 2 Sundays a month at the most, he has not been off a Sunday since October except for Christmas Day. I am so shy with people that I don't know well, that I can't go by myself. I have a hard time going to church by myself. Most of the time, I just don't go because the anxiety of it is too much for me to handle. I strive for a sense of belonging, but I'm so afraid of not fitting in, that I don't try. My two closest friends live in Texas, so I'm without girls just to hang out with. There are some married friends here that we have, but I'm without a group. I long for a group, but cannot find one. I'm in a weird place, and I hate it.

moving

Oh, how I hate to move. It is the pits. Ty and I are moving into a house. We will be there by Sunday night. We still don't have a refrigerator, and we haven't packed a thing. So not looking forward to the move, but looking forward to the house. I love the way we've remodeled. In one week and one day, we have torn out carpet in three rooms and refinished the hardwood floors, painted 5 rooms and 2 bathrooms, laid ceramic tile in the kitchen and hallway. Today we are laying tile in the bathrooms and laundry room. I am sore, have paint in my hair and have no motivation to pack. Does not sound like a fun filled week.

Boy or Girl

Well, I have to confess to being dumb and blind. At my school we have two teacher restrooms. They both have a huge sign that says "TEACHERS, STAFF, AND VISITORS ONLY" I took that to mean me. Well it is, but I failed to look at the pictures of person with pants or person with skirt. Everyone picks their favorite stall, so since these were one holers, I picked my favorite one. There is not a urinal in either. I picked the one with the person with the pants. I did not use this restroom once or twice, but daily for 12 weeks. I finally discovered my mistake because another teacher brought up using the male's restroom. I was thinking, "There's a male's restroom?" Sure enough, there is. The symbol is the same size as the sign with words, so I have no idea how I missed it. Now, some daily thoughts make sense...."Why is the lid always up? I must come in after the janitor everyday." "Why is there no small trashcan next to the toilet?" and "Why do all the students look at me funny when I leave the restroom? We all do it." Now, I know the answers to those questions. MENS RESTROOM!

Short Hair

Ever since I've been married, my hair has been a dilemma. Ty loves long hair, so I feel I need to wear my hair long. I on the other hand, think that my hair looks much better short. I've kept relatively long hair for two years now. Well, Wednesday, I took the plunge. I chopped about 8 inches off. I didn't even realize my hair was long enough to chop 8 inches off and get the hair cut I love. I got chunky red and blonde highlights in. I love my new hair cut. Ty saw it and said, " I love long hair, but that looks really good." I thought that was pretty good since he was so against the haircut.

It only takes me 3 minutes to do my hair now.
Kyla

Simple Pleasures

Yesterday, during my planning period, I ran and got some lunch at Subway. I have not been there in a long time. Ty prefers Quiznos over Subway, so we rarely go. I love Subway. My only complaint about them is that they serve Pepsi. I want Coke and only Coke. Well, yesterday I decided to go even though they have Pepsi. I ordered my food and right as I got up to pay I saw the best thing in life. Subway has changed to Coke!!! Oh, happy blessed day.

Random note: My hispanic child came to parent/teacher conferences and translated for her father. It was fabulous to see this. I just love that.

Members of the church

Why is it that members of the church seem to hurt us the worst? Recently, my family has been hurt by friends who are members of the church. Am I just expecting more because they are Christians, or do I expect them to not hurt me because of the friendship. I love these people dearly and now I am unsure of my respect for them. I hate that things like this happen. I understand why people leave the church. If you are struggling with being faithful at all and then are hurt, you feel its not worth it. I feel close to this result. I've been struggling with what I believe and what I have faith in, and then I get hurt by people who were helping to hold me up. I feel like crying, and giving up, but I know that is not what I need to do. I need to forgive them and look to God for faith and comfort, but I'm struggling. I don't know what to do. I hate feeling lonely and far away from Christ and my brothers and sisters.

Long time no blog

I have not blogged in like two weeks. Sometimes I go a long time, but never this long except when I was at fireworks.

Sunday, I went to church with my parents. They had a guest speaker who discussed the mission field in India. He mentioned the Hindu class system. Hindus believe that they cannot ever change their role in life. Untouchables always remain untouchables no matter what they do. This caused me to do a lot of thinking about Americans. Do we really think that a class system is so bad? We say that it is bad, but we ourselves take part. People born in poverty almost always stay in poverty. Rich people remain rich. I have students that continue to have an F, no matter what they do. Why do we condemn other cultures, when our own culture does the same thing? I don't feel like I can move out of the place I am in. Our school system sets up some kids for failure. I hate that. I don't know what to do to help them. I feel like I expect too much, but at the same time I know they can handle what they've been told. I would like for Americans to reevaluate their standards and how they view other people. We don't have it all figured it out, and we do have a class system ourself.

Fall

I love the fall!!! It's wonderful! So many great things happen in the fall. There are so many reasons to enjoy life in autumn. I love the colors of the leaves as they change. The holidays in this season are great. Halloween!!! Who could ask for something better than just getting a ton of candy to eat? Thanksgiving!!! Oh, how I love pumpkin pie. I really enjoying going to Wal-Mart and seeing how they have moved all the baking supplies out onto the center aisle. It makes me crave sweet potatoes and all the other fixings of a magnificent Thanksgiving dinner. Even TV stations recognize how wonderful fall is by having season premieres to celebrate. I even like that school starts in the fall. It's a great way to have a chance to start over in the middle of the year. I guess I'm kind of like Tom Hanks in You've Got Mail. I would love to receive a bouquet of freshly sharpened pencils. It's a great smell. The best spectator sport, football, is in the fall. The most important perfect thing about fall is the cool, crisp air. AAHHH!!! What a relief from the hot summer air. Who could not love fall?