Shopping

I love to go shopping. It is great fun, but this week, I have almost decided it is not worth it because of lack of customer service.

My advanced science class is taking home mealworms to raise into beetles. I had to go to "The Fishbowl" to purchase them. Well, there was only one person working period. He had to get fish, birds, hamsters, and mealworms out for whoever. There were like 3o customers. I finally got him to get by worms. He then asked if that would be all. I said yes and proceeded to go to the register. Did he follow? No!!! I waited for 15 minutes to be checked out! If I didn't need them for class, I would have just left.

I then head to Wal-Mart. Unlike most people, I enjoy Wal-Mart. I love to take my time and walk up and down all the aisles and look at stuff I don't need nor will I ever and wonder who buys that. Well, Wednesday I did not have the time to do this. I had to get in, get out, go home, cook supper, and go to church. So, I was on track to get out of there quickly. Well, the first obstacle was my cart. It worked just fine until I put two bags of 40 lb. dog food in it. Then it became that clanging annoying cart that won't turn. I buy dog food all the time and this doesn't happen, so it was the cart. On top of that everyone was there. It was so crowed that you had to go down the aisles twice, one time for each side. Towards the end of the experience all the stockers come out. They close off all the short breaks in the main aisle, so you have to go all the way to the end and back if you needed something on the other side. Then there were only like 5 registers open, so the lines were so long. It was awful! I didn't even make it home in time to unload the car to go to church much less cook dinner. So, we had Taco Bell, and stayed home. I now know why people hate Wal-Mart. They shop on Wednesdays before church. I know I will never again go on Wednesday after school.

There were loose birds in both stores. They were opening the bird food bags at Wal-Mart.

Secret Sins

We all have some secret sins that we participate in. That might not be sins, but we know that it's not healthy to do them as often as we do. Here are a list of mine.

• Sex and the City Reruns
• Online Games at Shockwave
• Reading blogs
• Ice cream with caramel
• Doing nothing
• Procastinating
• Survivor when its on

What are some of your secret or open indulgences?

Lost

I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I want friends to do things with here in Searcy, but I'm too paranoid to go find them. Searcy is a weird place to be if you're a graduate and don't have kids. There is no strong group at churches for people in this position. You still feel like a student especially if you are married to one, but you are an adult. There are not many people in this position, so it drives you to want to have a baby sooner. I want a baby to put me in a different social group, but I can't afford one. I'm not ready mainly because my husband isn't ready. I'm starting grad school in the fall, so I will be a full time employee and student. This will most likely put me in a weirder spot than I am now, but it might give me some outlets for meeting new people.

Ty's job has him working most Sunday mornings. Even though he was told it would be 2 Sundays a month at the most, he has not been off a Sunday since October except for Christmas Day. I am so shy with people that I don't know well, that I can't go by myself. I have a hard time going to church by myself. Most of the time, I just don't go because the anxiety of it is too much for me to handle. I strive for a sense of belonging, but I'm so afraid of not fitting in, that I don't try. My two closest friends live in Texas, so I'm without girls just to hang out with. There are some married friends here that we have, but I'm without a group. I long for a group, but cannot find one. I'm in a weird place, and I hate it.