Many Emotions

I do not like grad school right now. I have no motivation to complete my assignments. I do not care if I don't get an A. I've never been that way before. I don't know what to do to get motivated again, because I just do not care at all. One class I don't mind, but the other one I hate. I feel like I have been in this class repeatedly. It's the same professor for three other classes that I've had. All of the classes have been the same.

I quit cheerleading. I hate that I had to quit. It was so hard leaving all of the girls. I feel sorry for them and the situation I left them in. I had to quit because of health and personal reasons. I now worry about what it's going to be like for the cheerleaders the rest of the year. It has been the hardest last couple of weeks staying out of cheerleading. I love the girls, and I want to stay involved because they are so great, but I had to leave for personal reasons.

I am in Mississippi and am so excited that I am able to visit friends. I am enjoying the time away from Searcy and the ability to relax. We have no plans, and that's so great!! I love not having to rush anywhere.

I love teaching school right now. School is so fun. I'm getting to teach the kids so many fun things and they are really enjoying learning. I feel like I am making a difference in their lives both educationally and emotionally. I am truly doing my job as a teacher.

For the most part, I have great co-workers. They really care about me and what I am doing. They are so nice to me. Yesterday, I had several go out of their way to make sure I was okay. I felt so loved. I am very thankful for that.

Spiders

I do not like spiders. I never have. They're freaky, eight legged creatures. I don't even like grand-daddy long legs. Well, my dispise for spiders has grown recently. A week ago a red sore developed on my toe. I had no idea what was from. By Sunday, my whole foot was swollen and I couldn't walk. I went to the ER (not my favorite place) because of the pain and I had red streaks leaving the wound. They concluded that I had been bitten by a brown recluse. When, I do not know. My foot looks awful. I have not been to work all week. The swelling is massive, and now I have a very nasty wound. I've been back to the doctor on Tuesday, and I'm going back this afternoon. On Monday, I developed a blister in my eye. I do not know if this is related to the spider. I'm so glad that I didn't see the spider when it bit me. If I had, the spider would be going through just as much pain and suffering that I have been through because of his choice to bite me.