Just a few questions

If you have an answer, please feel free to try to answer.

- why are seventh graders so unorganized?
- why do apples and bananas turn brown when you cut them?
- where do warts come from?
- who's idea was it for school to start at 8 am?
- when will i feel like a real adult?
- why is it easier to sleep with a fan on than without it?
- why does one of my legs have to be out of the covers while sleeping?
- why are kitchen aid mixers so expensive?
- what's a good rate for buying a house in searcy?
-what's up with closing costs?

i don't know...they've been running through my brain all week.

Jealousy

I'm jealous. Recently, I have come to notice that I am by nature a jealous person. Things I'm jealous of:

• newly married couples who can buy a house
• people who can buy brand name food and clothes
• people who can decorate
• artists
• clean houses
• nice cars
• closeness to God
• friendships
• talent
• ability to lose weight

I realize that most of my jealousy is for material things, but I think about it a lot. It burns in me constantly. I need help and prayers to ease these desires.

Things I love about my job

Well, I was worried about nothing. School starts Friday, but I love working here. I've made friends with a lady named Sue. She's been a lot of support and encouragement. I've been made the 7th grade chair. It's kind of weird, but at the same time it's nice to know that they can recognize my leadership and orginizational skills. I got a big time raise! My principal is so extremely laid back. I get to control the air in my classroom. I work on the hall with a bunch of coaches. I don't look like a 7th grader.

The Jury is Out

Sometimes I tend to be judgemental. I think lots of critizing thoughts, but I rarely voice them. Because I judge people, I always feel like I am being judged. I worry about what other people think about me. I act differently than I normally would because of what I would be thinking if I were that person. I really feel judged by our neighbor, because everytime I see them, my 75lb. dog goes to jump up on them. I can't control him, because he weighs so much. He just runs over and he is so excited. He is only hyper around them, and I feel like they judge me for not being able to control him.

My housecleaning is another huge issue. When you live with Ty being neat is not easy. I'm a neatfreak. I used to not be able to leave for school until my bed was made. That was not because my parents made me, but because I couldn't stand it. I always think people judge me for not being spick and span at my house.

are other people as petty as me, or is it just me? should i be so concerned about other people? are other people as judgemental as me?

Unexpected

Recently, I heard a sermon about giving money. It had to do with setting aside the money for the Lord first, and that somehow God would provide for you. It was really hard for me to believe this and totally trust this. Well, this last month with all of mine and Ty's unexpected expenses, I just couldn't understand how God could provide that much money. There are two major things this week that has been God providing. Currently our bank account is overdraft, but as of tomorrow morning it will not be.

1. God gave Ty a job at 6.50 an hour right now, and he has already worked almost 40 hours.
2. Our fireworks distributer wrote a check out in full for our criminal littering ticket. How great!!!

God really does provide, but it truly did hurt to trust Him.

Sadness

Patton is really sick. I'm so bummed. Yesterday he started peeing blood. I know gross! Well, I took him to the vet immediately. They ran all sorts of tests and even gave him a cathater. It was so sad. Anyways it has been discovered that he has a bladder infection. He also has some kind of tick born disease that causes excessive bleeding. He also tested positive for heartworms. We haven't missed any of his heartworm medicine, so he had it before we got him. Patton is very pathetic. I feel so bad for him. We have lots of medical treatments to get him better. I nearly cried in the vet's office. Thankfully, he doesn't act that sick. This just adds a little more of the money issues. Yippee!!! Anyways, I hope he gets better soon.

Nervous things that go with a new job

I have a new job teaching seventh grade science. I am very excited about it. I have been going to meetings, and have had lots of scary things surface.

• will the other teachers like me
• will i be mistaken for a 7th grader (i already have by the school counselor)
• not knowing where things are like the gym and choir room
• not having the materials
• not knowing any of the people i'm working with
• switching from 1st grade to 7th
• is my boss laid back or uptight
• will i be good at teaching
• i don't know how to dissect a worm or frog...will i mess it up?

there are many other worries, but these have been some major ones that i feel often. tomorrow is open house and staff development. hopefully i'll feel better about things after tomorrow.

For Everything Else There Is Not a Mastercard

I am a planner by nature, but I do not plan for unexpected expenses. Besides not planning for it, I don't really have the money to save up for it, even if I was trying to save it. Well, recently any extra money we had in our bank account and the money that was not so extra is gone. We've been bombarded with things that aren't just begging for money, but lots of it.
Criminal Littering Ticket: $600
Two new tires: $120
Computer (two computers got burned in a lightning storm) : $1200

How are normal people supposed to pay for all their other expenses when they have these? Grown up life stinks!!! Any suggestions on how to make quick money?